By The Tree...Where will God take me?

I am happy today.

The sun came out! I was able to get out and run for 6 miles. Did you hear me? OUTSIDE! OH YEAH! LOVING THE VIT D.
I also rocked out to some new music. Click on the title above to enjoy my newest selections.

Yes, they are a Christian rock band. 'By The Tree' performed in concert at a youth group conference called "Planet Wisdom" that my daughter (Katie) attended over the weekend. If you hang out on this site long enough, you can play their new album. I love it! Especially that first song, "Hold You High." Luckily Katie's friend bought it and let Katie borrow it.

She traveled with a ton of other teenagers and parents down to Antioch. She was moved. She was rocked. She loves the Lord and I couldn't be more proud of her.

She is having to go through a lot of crap right now and for me, knowing that she prays and still loves Christian music at this age...gives me hope that she will know God forever and carry in her heart the only kind of love that truly lasts.

I know I've said it before...but it's true. No matter what deep pain we go through or how many times we try to ditch him...He is still there, still caring, still loving us, still wanting to make our hurts go away.

Okay, enough preaching.

Wondering about my job? I leave in 4 days. I'm scared to death!

Not just scared.

I'm also excited, challenged, thrilled, anxious and worried.

And I have some very good reasons to feel all these things at once.

Here's one of them...
I'm mostly afraid of handing over the control that has been mine for the last 13 years. It's so hard to trust someone else to take care of your children. Even when it's their own father. The longest I've been without them is 10 days.
This adventure will take me away for 24 days. Then if I get the domicile I want (Sacramento) I will be gone for another week of training. After that I will have to be willing to be gone at the drop of a hat.
Honestly, I don't know if I can do this. I'm worried. I will miss them so much, but I know they will be safe and in good hands.

My mother and mother-in-law think I'm doing the wrong thing. It's a mother's point of view...I'm endangering their grandkids. Why can't you get a 9-5 job Kathy?
How do I explain?
I'm digging the idea of this job because it challenges me to overcome a fear of flying. Plus I really want to see the world. This will be a great way to accomplish that desire and make some money to boot. I am looking forward to meeting new people and taking my family to Portugal. Is this really so hard to understand?

I feel like I'm standing at the world's door...and I really want to go through it. I want to experience it. I want to fly!

If only I could be a bird for a day.

Listen to the song..."Beautiful One." It just might be my new favorite song on the album?? Perhaps.