Recurrent pictures

COME THIS WAY! GET OUT, GO GO!
Me and Savanna ready to save your ass! hehe
Damn, this door is heavy. Take the picture Savanna!!
Putting out the fire. I love doing this!
Me shouting...RELEASE SEATBELTS, GET OUT!

email

My email address is

kbattles23@comcast.net

I'm not worried about giving this address out since I probably won't have it for much longer. Maybe a month or so?

The only thing is, I don't get to check it very often. I'll do my best.

When it hasn't been your day, week or month or even your year

Hi friends,

I apologize for the delay. Life got worse. Yes, I know....worse?

I feel incredibly sorry for MB. But it's hard to feel THAT sorry for someone who purposefully ruins his life. I know you're reading this MB, but you know you must face the consequences for your actions. I don't mean to embarrass you by airing out all this info- but it helps me to share my struggles as well as my joys.

The school had to call the sheriff this time. He doesn't remember doing it, but he left 2 threatening messages on Kaytee's phone while I was at the coast with Megan's 5th grade camp last week. The felony charge against him will probably get reduced to a lesser charge because nobody wants Kaytee to have to stand in court and testify against her father. Besides, she erased the message.

I know you are all worried about me. Don't be. I am a strong girl and can take care of this. I have my lawyer working on a restraining order. He says he is sorry and that he wants to get his life back in order. If you really want to do that, then do it! Leave us alone.

I want him to stop drinking. I want him to get a job. I want him to care about himself and someday be able to forgive himself for the pain he has caused his family. We can forgive you MB, but you must control your anger.

The things I want, I pray for everyday. I know I can't control anything, but my own emotions. I will NOT be bitter or hateful. I will NOT be stupid. I know this could get even worse. I don't want anyone to get hurt...including myself. If I really am going to die before I'm forty, will it be at the hand of my own husband? I must protect myself and our children.

I'm not scared. I'm not mad. I don't want to be foolish.

OTHER THINGS THAT SUCK...

*The house is not selling.
*I'm almost broke.
*My car took $1200.00 last week to fix. Vacuum seal leak in the upper and lower intake valve along with new front brakes. A rental car for 1 week took it over the one thousand mark. Thank God for credit cards!
*I finally caved in and agreed to let Kaytee go live with my sister in Oregon. (I cried all morning).

THINGS THAT DON'T SUCK...

*I still LOVE my job. I've added more jokes and everyone tells me how much they enjoyed the flight when they deplane. It truely makes me happy to fly.
*Me and the girls have medical insurance now.
*The guy I'm seeing has not hit the "bail out" button yet. With all the crap that MB has put him through, I can't believe he came back! He must be foolish too.
*I wrote 2 pages on my book the other day and my next article is coming out next month. The president and vp of SIA confrence called me to ask me if they could hand out copies of my first article to every new hire flight attendant so they can put it in their manual! That is very cool and a huge compliment to my writing.
*I have had the joy of spending time with my friends the last 2 months. I've seen Savanna 3 times! She picked me up in Boise the other day and we drove past Nampa to meet up with Andrea. Andrea was also in our new hire training class and got based in Chicago. We hadn't seen her since last year. It was nice to see her again.
*I didn't have to change my tire when I picked up an exacto knife blade and it went flat. It just so happened that a male parent was meeting me to pick up his daughter and he put my spare on for me. The next day I took it back to where I bought the tire. They were able to fix it for free. These are NOT coincidences folks.
*I always have lots of help all around me. Friends, family and I know all of you are out there praying for me too.
*I will forever declare God's Grace.

God is good! All the time...GOD IS GOOD!

You must be able to see Him in the bad events as well as the good. I actually see Him clearer when life sucks.

I've seen Him a lot this year.

He tells me things will get better. He just doesn't tell me when.

**Again- I apologize for not letting you leave a comment, but I think you can send me an email.

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I'm so sorry to have to do this folks...

No more comments.

It's not that I don't love getting them...I DO!! But yesterday MB got extremely hostile. He spent a great deal of time destroying my things. This is a shame because for the last few weeks we've been getting along rather well.

I don't care so much about the collection of teacups and plates that crashed to their death on my voicemail, but the baby stroller that I've had since I was 7?... the one that my parents purchased for me from a lady that brought it over from Germany...the one I used to put myself in when I was feeling sad (I've always been kinda tiny)...I guess it's gone. It was an antique and I've tried my best over the years to take good care of it.

He said he burned it. I hope it's not true.

I can only imagine that the soft white leather interior and dark velvet navy blue fabric must have gone up it two seconds. I've got to remember that it was just an item. I will not forget the way it smelled or how comforting it felt.

He wants to hurt me, but I won't let him. He's jealous that I have another male interest. He says that I'm hurting the kids and that I don't care about them...which of course IS NOT TRUE. They are mad at me though.

Today I'll be calling my lawyer and getting a restrainting order. I've already called the police. They said that my things are considered community property and that he can break them if he wants to. They suggested that I call back and get a civil escort to take me over there so I can retrieve my possesssions.

Honestly, I don't know what I should take? Is there anything left? Thank God, I already took the care bear my sister made when I was 12 and the little chair that Katie used when she was 2. Also a bead doll that a little old lady made for me when I was 9 and so many charished pictures that could never be replaced.

Enough of my drama. To all you mothers out there...Happy Mother's Day. I hope mine will understand my heart someday.

A family of friends

Lately, I've been spending all my time with friends! I finished recurrent training today (I've been stressing out about it for the last few weeks). Pictures to follow in my next post...but just to let you know- I PASSED! Not one single mistake on all my evacuations and 95% on the final exam. Oh yeah!!

Now sit back relax and enjoy the pics.

Me and Savanna in Boise, Idaho

Ron and Michelle in Colordo Springs. Thanks for the hospitality guys! Church was great and the BBQ wings were too! BTW- It's Tuesday- HAPPY BIRTHDAY RON!!

Me and my childhood best friend, Deedee in Ontario, Ca.

I'm a rich woman

Hello friends!

I've been fortunate this week. I was blessed with the good fortune of visiting my childhood best friend!

Deedee and I were best friends before we even knew how to say daddy. We spent the first ten years of our lives sleeping over at each other's houses and riding bikes as far as we could get away with. That was back when Salinas, Ca. was mostly farm land.

My dad moved us to a small northern Ca. town one month before my 11th birthday. Three years later, Deedee's family moved to southern Ca.

We have always been able to keep in contact due to the fact that our parents were also best friends. As adults, Deedee and I shared each other's joy as we hit the milestones that most people encounter while going through the fabulous gift of life. She was my maid of honor as well as my oldest daughter's God mother.

Deedee married a nice black man and together they have 2 boys. She sent me a Christmas card this year, but I failed to respond.

Last week, I knew that I had an overnight in Ontario. I wondered if she was still living nearby. I decided it was worth a try and called her home number, hoping it was current.

It was. I got her machine. I left a message asking if she had time would she like to get together?

While I was in the air, she called back and left a message on my cell phone. She is an awesome friend. I don't know if she really had any plans or not, but suddenly I became a priority. She offered to pick me up at the airport and let me stay with her. I didn't have to report until 3pm the next day, so of course I said "sure!"

We had a GREAT time! I had gotten in late (11pm) but we stayed up until 4am trading war stories. We tallied the time that had passed since our last meeting and were shocked to realize it had been 7+ years!

6am was litterally a blink away and my head started pounding about as loudly as Deedee's husband & dad's hammering in the hallway. They were putting in a whole house fan.

Deedee apologized, but it was fine. I feel back to sleep for 2 more hours. Once awake, we all got ready and went out for breakfast (picture to be posted later). IHOP was good.

After breakfast, Chris (Deedee's husband) needed a few things from Lowe's. On the way there, the big truck we were all in died. Oh boy! An adventure!

It turned out fine. Chris got it going after a while and we were able to get it out of the middle of the street without pushing. While we were in Lowe's, Deedee's brother (Matt) showed up with an even larger truck and pulled us to a gas station where they did this and that. (How do I know? I'm NOT a machanic).

It was nice to visit with her brother. There family was like my second family. Man, her brother sure looks like her dad!!

When we got back to her house, her parents were there waiting for us. Deedee's mom really wanted to see me. We hugged and visited for the rest of my time. I even called my mom so she and Mary could talk.

Back at the airport, I gave Deedee a big hug good-bye. It was emotional for me. I didn't know how much I missed her.

Heck, she didn't even know I had become a flight attendant! I shouldn't let time go by like that. I should call the people that matter...the ones who made a difference. I should do it often...while I can.

And the blessings just keep on coming...tomorrow I start a 4 day trip that takes me to Colorodo Srings where I'll hopefully get to visit with Ron!